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What will be the future?

in my opinion, this world and most people ( esp who lives in big cities) are really materialistic. i come from a country that is so poor and i moved to a big city in US. i know i am lucky because most of the people in my country cannot have the opportunity to go here. but instead, i am deeply DEPRESSED. i am not homesick, ive been here for 3 years. things are going worse for me than ever. its impossible for me to be happy without anything related to money. im only happy when i shop, spend money,get new things, etc but i HATE this person ive become. and i remind myself ALL THE TIME to not change. people in my country are very simple. my friends dont care about branded stuff or cars. we just hang out and eat and laugh nothing that needed much money. but my friends here bragsss about bags clothes shoes cars,etc that costs hundreds and thousands of dollars. in my country there are beautiful places like beach mountains and i get so refereshed, its so different than what its like here. and im depressed because nobody understands me. most of the people who come to US are very aggresive in school and work.and it freaks me out. i mean, these people are soo obsessed with work and school (which of course leads to money) they just want to be rich. im freaked out because i realized that money becomes people #1 priority in life.to live rich. i know not all, but most people around me are like that, even my boyf. and feel lonely most of the time bcause nobody understands me and i feel like the world is turning and spinning so fast and im just here. i dont even want to move i just want to be happy,live at ease and enjoy every moment. but icant!!! i didnt want to go here, my parents forced me to. being around them also makes me feel like a failure because i am not even close to their achievements (eventho im not interested) but i cant help it. and i cant be myself completely and im not comfortable around them. i just feel like im born in the wrong era. i hate technology. i wish i was born in an era where technology havent exist yet. so what should i do? dont say to come home to my country because i cant do that for at least 3 years. so thats not an option cheer me up or criticize me for being a spoiled girl or whatever will be appreciated thanksssss

Public Comments

1. no one knows what will happen. don't worry about it
2. That's life man. I feel that way too. Which country you from?
3. You are absolutely right. Society today focuses on materialistic things, but not only the US does it. I think maybe the reason we buy so many materialistic things, is to impress others. I really think thats why. Why would you want a brand name bag? To show others your sucessful and have enough money to buy it, your in with fashion, etc. Who knows what the future will hold, I just hope it gets better!
4. I understand totally what you are saying. It is ok to feel happy when you are enjoying something now, that you would of never of been able to do back home. It is ok. There is nothing to feel bad about. You were given a wonderful opportunity, by loving parents who wanted the best for you, and in the long range of life, this is what they found and were able to accomplish for you. Make sure you thank them often, and remind them how much you love them. THe people you live with, thank thank them too, your very lucky. You are not spoiled, you are a wondeful conciencous person, who has a wonderful opportunity here. You could always go home when your education is up and spread your new found knowledge and help those in your country, and you can stay here too, keeping those in mind and helping as you can. Understand your friends were raised diffrently than you were, let them be the way they want, and you remain who you are. You can still enjoy their company and friendship, you do not have to turn into one of them. Noone who has not lived your life can understand how you feel, we are all seperate people, with diferent values and morals. You can make it through this, if you need more to life. Go down to the closest hospital and do volunteer work, or animal shelter, do some volunteer work. I think it is something that will make you feel more a part of life. It can be dificult to accept technological changes that have not come to your country and helped it prosper, but know that someday, good will finally come and be a helpful and most welcomed change. Good luck, keep smiling.