Enderts Beach and other Secluded Beaches

what will be the future?

in my opinion, this world and most people ( esp who lives in big cities) are really materialistic. i come from a country that is so poor and i moved to a big city in US. i know i am lucky because most of the people in my country cannot have the opportunity to go here. but instead, i am deeply DEPRESSED. i am not homesick, ive been here for 3 years. things are going worse for me than ever. its impossible for me to be happy without anything related to money. im only happy when i shop, spend money,get new things, etc but i HATE this person ive become. and i remind myself ALL THE TIME to not change. people in my country are very simple. my friends dont care about branded stuff or cars. we just hang out and eat and laugh nothing that needed much money. but my friends here bragsss about bags clothes shoes cars,etc that costs hundreds and thousands of dollars. in my country there are beautiful places like beach mountains and i get so refereshed, its so different than what its like here. and im depressed because nobody understands me. most of the people who come to US are very aggresive in school and work.and it freaks me out. i mean, these people are soo obsessed with work and school (which of course leads to money) they just want to be rich. im freaked out because i realized that money becomes people #1 priority in life.to live rich. i know not all, but most people around me are like that, even my boyf. and feel lonely most of the time bcause nobody understands me and i feel like the world is turning and spinning so fast and im just here. i dont even want to move i just want to be happy,live at ease and enjoy every moment. but icant!!! i didnt want to go here, my parents forced me to. being around them also makes me feel like a failure because i am not even close to their achievements (eventho im not interested) but i cant help it. and i cant be myself completely and im not comfortable around them. i just feel like im born in the wrong era. i hate technology. i wish i was born in an era where technology havent exist yet. so what should i do? dont say to come home to my country because i cant do that for at least 3 years. so thats not an option cheer me up or criticize me for being a spoiled girl or whatever will be appreciated thanksssss

Public Comments

1. no dear its not your problem... its the problem of the US....This technology science and all tat stuff shouldn't be blames... its needed for a better life and better understanding of truth... actually you haven't become tat money minded otherwise you will not post like this... the goal of life for me( i m atheist) is not to seek GOD but "TO SEEK PLEASURE" money is a way to get pleasure. But the greatest way to get pleasure is "unselfish service" ...there are other ways like love,sex,art etc.. we have to order the priorities in life and money never comes first. Think more about love, realations, some acts of charity... world is a much better and more beautiful place to live when you live in the right direction...
2. Hey babe, i can feel the depression from the question and the details you have provided. I am from india. I cannot be physical present to help you out but as virtual and good communication i can make you feel good for yourself. I also don't have good online friends until today. But not if you feel that i can be your friend to help you . You can ping me i am online and i will there at any point by virtual not physically. If you are willing to have a good discussion and friendship ping me karthikeyan_mhn@yahoo.com